i feel much the same way. my boss and i were talking about this today. it seems to me that there are people who want nothing more to make the world suffer with them. this man was suffering and it seems as though he thought that bringing others to death with him would bring him either glory or vindication. i don't understand the fixation on the killer. the press does this every single time. when 9/11 happened, we focused on the hijackers, where they came from, what they were thinking, the plans that they had. instead of focusing on the suffering of demented men, we need to enjoy the love of children, the beauty of the world. hold him close and pray that raising happy, healthy, loving children will redeem a culture of violence.